A beautiful sunday

So I started off today like the last few, by swimming. Well not really started. Andy and I woke up at about 8:30 and then went over to Alex and Nicole's again for breakfast. We made pancakes, again, and they were delicious, again. I love pancakes. This morning we only had 4 eggs for the 4 of us so we each had 1 scrambled egg. And we made bacon, and I kinda like bacon, but I like it more meaty so when it was 99% fat, I opted out. I felt good about this. So breakfast was good, I felt full, but not stuffed, which is a feeling I am getting used to. I used to eat until I couldn't, but but now I am only eating until I am not hungry.

So after breakfast, we went swimming for 2.5 hours, which was so fun. I think swimming is a great workout. And fun.

Then we made lunch, and I kinda splurged and had 2.5 all beef hot dogs, with light ketchup and mustard. With that we had au gratin potatoes and green bean casserole. I felt really good about lunch, even tho I had an extra half a hot dog. It was good.

Then we went shopping and got this really great wine. We sat around until we made dinner, which was grilled chicken with vodka sauce and mini penne. I ate about half of it, but had 2 pieces of french bread. Like I had mentioned, I love bread. I don't think I will be able to stop eating it.

So another good day I think. We will see how tomorrow goes. I need to start doing a little more cardio (beside the brief 15-20 minute cardio andy and I get in frequently. lol)

I am very proud of Tasha and I am excited to see her on the 13th!!

sundays=relaxing=no excersise

so today we started the day off with church. and it was the stake conferance. so it was a lot of sitting! i did some house cleaning in today though, so there was some good excersise there.

Breakfast:
2 waffles with syrup (but no butter)
glass of milk (when i say glass, i mean 8oz)

morning snack: none

lunch:
imitation crab with lemon (no butter)
grilled cheese sandwhich (lots of butter) there's nothing like a grilled cheese that so buttery and delicious...yumm!!!

afternoon snack:none

dinner: a few bites of steak (it was a lttle too tuff for me) and then all of the mushroom and bluecheese crumble steak toppings.

evening snack: angel food cake wiith strawberries, blueberries and raspberries. (and some whipped...milk.... :)

it's 10:06 right now, and i'm starving. now usually i would just say "let this be a lesson" sorda thing, but since i'm breastfeeding i can't really let myself go hungry. b/c then i get all lightheaded, plus all my nutrients are taken from me, into my milk for Little C. so even though it's late, i'm gong to go have a bowl of cearal, b/c i can't take it!!!

it's been really hard eating small portions through out the day. and that grease craving is hard to overcome!!! tomorrow i already know what i'm having for breakfast! eggs and turkey bacon! and it wll be delicious!

today i forgot to take my vitamins...again. *BAD TASHA!!!!!

excersise:
cleaned house for about 3hrs. laundry mopping, sweeping, organizing.

A semi healthy meal at McDonalds

So I began the day yesterday much better than the day before. I woke up early and made breakfast with my friends. I had 3 sausages, 2 scrambled eggs and 2 pancakes.  I usually load my pancakes up with butter, but I resisted, and it was a good breakfast. Then we went out and laid in the sun for an hour and I got a little tan. Vain, I know, and bad for you, but I feel better about myself when I am not pasty. Then after that, Andy and I drove down to his moms house and went out to lunch at this burger place. I really hate eating out, but for some reason it is thrust into my life. I don't get it. So I had a mushroom burger with cheddar cheese and ate... all of it. But no fries. So I felt ok about that because while I did eat the whole thing, it wasn't a greasy hamburger, it was good. 

Then we went back to his moms and played cards. We didn't eat dinner... which I was upset about because I need to be eating to keep my metabolism up. So when andy and I left at 9 pm, we stopped at McD's and I discovered that you can get a salad instead of fries with a meal! so I got the grilled chicken club (lots of lettuce and tomato) and a salad with Balsamic Vinaigrette. I felt great! It tasted great and was grilled chicken and the salad was DELISH! So all in all, it was a good day. I made healthier choices. And while I didn't get a workout in, I am ok with that. 

busy busy day

so today started with my lovely boys waking us up at 6:30 althought they didn't make us get out of bed until 7. today was a busy day, so i did what i could.

Breakfast:
1 egg
2 peices toast w/butter and jelly
1 glas of apple juice

morning snack:
banana

lunch:
breakfast burrito with egg, green chilli and potatoes

afternoon snack: none

dinner:
muscle milk
(saturdays i work from 3-8 with no break...so dinner on a saturday is a little hard, that's i usually bring some kind of protien packed smoothie. i also have peanut butter and trail mix at work)

i forgot to take my vitamins today.

sweets of the day:
1 peanut butter cookie (someone at work brought a big tub in)

excersize:
started the day off with sebastian's gymnastics class, then did 5.5 hrs of massage.

oh mexican.

so today didn't start out so bad, and i'd say all in all it wasn't a horrible day. but it could have been better. and you may think i'm being to hard on my self. but that's the point for 21 days. b/c if i get use to eating small healthy meals 6 times a day then it wont be as hard or as stressfull.
okay so here it is:

Breakfast: (i don't have the times i ate today)
made 16 oz superfood smootie. half milk half apply juice. i drank half of it.
then i had the recomended serving size bowl of cearal with 2% milk.

i felt pretty good. i was off to a good start!

morning snack:
the rest of my superfood smoothy.

i felt good, not great. i was really craving something greasy...which leads me to lunch...

Lunch:
casedilla, with lots of cheese and butter. aaaand i was only going to have it with salsa, but we're out. so instead i had it with mexi ranch. i will admit thought that even though it was delicious. i felt guilty...but obviously not guilty enough....

No afternoon snack

Dinner:
tacos with cheese and a little mexi ranch. now, i can say that as far as this meal goes, i did pretty well. sometimes you have to work with what you have. so usually these would be beef, and i would have put tons of cheese and all kinds of sauces. but instead we made them with turkey. and i had my husband make mine, he usually only like a little cheese and a little sauce. so it was much better then what i would have usually made for myself. and i loved it! i thnk sometimes it's about the small choices. they really add up and can make a difference. like switching from ground been to turkey.

like jess i have a small weakness with bread...but my hardest one will be sweets, and cheese. i love cheese! plus we get like 5lbs of it with our wic checks.

i worked from 6-10 so i did not have an evening snack. (an evening snack would usually consist of a thing of yogurt, or a small bowl of cereal.)

the sweets i had today:
3 dark choclate hershy squares
1 peanut butter cookie.

vitamins/suplements
2 omega capsules (good for skin hair, nails etc)
1prenatal vitamin (b/c every woman of conceiving age should take them, but also i'm nursing)
2 glucosamine (for my horrible joints, thanks to gymnastics)

Swimming Swimming Swimming

Today was a beautiful day. I love the sun, but only when it hits my skin and warms my soul. I can't wait to wear a bathing suit that flatters my body, not just covers it. So after my breakfast epiphany, I had 3 chicken fingers for lunch, with water. This was actually a filling lunch. Granted they were breaded, and they were probably fried, I only had 3, out of an order of 5, and that felt good. I usually eat everything on my plate, but today I ate until I was full, and took my time. Turns out I was full after 3. 

When I got home I had a hard core sweet tooth. This is what is gonna kill me. I love sweets, hence the 3 turnovers. So I satiated it with a few squares of Dark Chocolate. I love dark chocolate. It is sweet, but not as bad for you as milk chocolate. 

Then for dinner, andy and I made chicken noodle soup from scratch. I LOVE this meal. It feels light, because it is a broth, and it has lots of veggies in it. I feel good after eating this. But I did figure out a huge weakness of mine. Bread. I had a small portion of soup, but 3 pieces of bread. I really think that no matter how hard I try, bread is going to be the hardest thing for me to rethink. 

And in the midst of my happy food day, I went swimming twice. The first time after lunch for an hour and a half. And the second time after dinner for another 2 hours. It was such a good workout! And I love it because it is low impact and free! We did all sorts of stuff, like swimming and running and we had a chicken fight. That was a heck of a workout because we had to hold each other up, and fight. it was crazy fun. 

I feel really good about today. I am ready to make tomorrow a good day also. 

My Before

This is the last time I will EVER look like this. 

I am a cheater.

So I will not post all of the details of yesterday, because it was a bad day. I started the day off with an Arbys's beef N Cheddar, 3 turnovers, and a coke. Not a good start. This was followed by a light snack of a sweet and nutty bar. Then for dinner I had an order of TGIFridays potato skins and a salad with ranch, with about 1/3rd of the green bean fries and 2 buffalo wings.....

Let this be a lesson to those reading this. I am human, but this was a bad day. I would typically, out of guilt, eat a lot today, or nothing at all, but I am going to try to be better. 

This morning, we had to go pick up our car from the mechanic and so we stopped at McDonalds. Bad Idea, I know. I ordered what I normally would, 2 sausage biscuits and a hash-brown and sprite. I ate the hash-brown on the way home. It was so greasy, and really didn't taste very good. But I was really hungry. Then I started eating the sausage biscuit and it was warm and fluffy and everything I love about sausage and biscuits, and when they are put together, its like heaven. 

I have a very skewed idea of food. like T said, food is fuel, and I clearly don't see that at this point. I am lusting over this sausage biscuit and that is when I put it down. I ate about 3/4 of it and stopped. I am starting my day off today no better than yesterday. So I stopped. 

I can't keep going down this road. its making me sick, physically and mentally. I am done eating breakfast, but when I leave for my appointment in northglenn, I am gonna take a sweet and nutty bar with me for a snack. 

I need to change the way I look at every part of my life, and I guess there is no better time than now. This is not going to be easy. Its not about eating right and exercise, its about changing the way you think about everything in your world. I really do keep trying to upload my before pictures, but the internet keeps cutting out. I swear they are on their way. 

Day One!!!

okay so the goal is to eat 6 meals a day. with breakfast lunch and dinner being only slightly bigger then the snacks. and usually only bigger b/c they has some sort of protien. and you should eat your last meal no less then two hrs, before you go to sleep. so here i go. and normally i would be going to the gym in the morning, but b/c of kids club stuff, i will have to go when my husband gets home from work for the time being. things i will completely cut out of my diet for the next 21 days: eating out (unless someone is taking us out to eat..which isn't likely) juices from concentrate, anything that has the word "cream" in it. and the things that i plan to cut back on are: juice of any kind (it's hard b/c that what we get for wic.) also keep in mind my portions have to be bigger then most b/c of my job, and i'm still breastfeeding. foods soul purpose is to give you nutrition, while it's delicious, it has no other purpose then to give your body the things it needs to survive. so for 21 days that's what you ahve to think of, the bare minimal. you have to think what you do in your day. if you're trying to lose wieght, you need to be consuming less calories then you're burning. and once you're at your goal wieght, then those numbers need to be exact. ex: with my job (massage therapist) i burn an extra 300 cal per massage. and with breast feeding (my son is 6 months old) i need to consume an extra 4-500 cal. also i have a 2 year old that i chase around all day. so you have to do what fits in your life. if you're burning 2000 cal a day, you can't only be consuming 1100 cal. that's not healthy.

Day 1 may 28th 2009

8:30 Breakfast:

2 Egg and
a yougurt drink
1 lghtly buttered peice of toast

how i felt: horrible, i so badly wanted to put those two eggs between two mayonase covered peices of bread!!! once you start doing this, you relize how many un healthy choices you were making.


11:00 morning snack:
apple with peanut butter

how i felt: great, one of my favorite snacks!!!


1:00 lunch:
the left over whopper jrs w/cheese. i didn't go out, but we already had it in our fridge, i did however take off the bread, which was where most of the sauce was, and just ate the patty, and garden.

how i felt: meh...it's left over fast food...although i totally savored that moment...that sweet moment with my whopper jr w/cheese that i wont soon get back...*sigh*


2:30 afternoon snack:
a superfood smoothy from the powdered superfood i got at whole foods a while ago. 1 scoop powder (protien and vegis, wheat grass, spurulina ect) and 16oz of milk. my husband brought me home a skore bar...i ate half and threw the rest at him telling him he can't buy me things like that anymore!! :)

6:00 dinner:
salmon filet with lght pepper seasoning, lemon juice grilled with olive oil
wild rice with mushrooms
plain steamed carrots (lightly seasoned)




evening snack:
did not have one, but as i'm writing this now, i'm wishing i did, but it's 10:39 and it's too late to eat.

how i felt: great! one of my favorite things to eat is salmon!! i'm not a huge fan of carrots, but i don't hate them, and we get them with wic.

physical activity of the day:
3 loads of laundry, and cleaned house. 2 hrs.
played with sebastian in backyard 1/2 hr.
went to pilates class at 24hr 1hr
work-2 massages 2hrs

end of day one notes:
it's hard to stay on schedule and not make excuses. but i will do my best!!! i want to be honest in everything i do...i'm only human, so i will make mistakes

Why I need to lose weight

For as long as I can remember, I have been a bigger kid. I remember the last time I was truly happy with my body was in 6th grade, before I hit puberty. And even then I was made fun of for being fat. So I guess I have never been truly happy with my body. When I hit puberty, I got hips and boobs, and fat started sticking to my stomach and thighs. Through high school, I was by no means fat, but thepeople around me convinced me otherwise. I was told by my step mom that I was fat and that I wouldn't be happy unless I lost weight. My sophomore year I did color guard and I was in great shape, best shape of my life. The coaches and my parents told me that I was too fat, and that I was disgusting to see in the uniforms. Below is a picture of me in color guard.

I disagree with my parents, but this is what I believed. When I graduated high school, I weighed about 180lbs. I was not skinny, but I looked good, I think. (See Picture)

When I entered college, I gained the freshman 15. Then the sophomore 15, and the junior 15 and the senior 15. Somehow I had ballooned to a person I didn't recognize and that is when I realized this was a problem. I, like Tasha, have made endless excuses. "I was on depo, and gained weight" "I have to eat more because Andy does", etc. All crap. I just stopped noticing the weight on my body and now I don't even recognize myself. 

Which brings me to this. Tasha had posted pictures of herself with the intention to lose weight, and I thought it was a brilliant idea. But I am bigger than tasha, so I was more embarrassed by facebook. So I suggested we make this blog and use it to motivate each other. But a large step in the weightloss journey is looking at the most embarrassing pictures of your life. Which brings me to these...

( I am having trouble uploading the pictures. 

I hope that my embarrassment can motivate others to take a stand and try to lose the weight. 

tasha's before pictures.

okay so here they are, the dreaded "before" pictures. if you're having trouble getting motivation, i reccomend publically himiluating yourself like this, trust me, it's good motivation to get thin!! (and like i said before, my goal isn't so much weight, b/c of my body type, and how much muscle i still have. i may not lose a whole lot of weight. my goal is to get healthy and in shape...and naturally by doing those thing, my body will look better) i forgot to weigh myself at the gym, but the last time i weighed myself (not too long ago) i was about 130 so that's what i'll start with. tomorrow i'll weigh myself so if it's different i'll change it. i'll be giving you new measurments every week. and new pictures. i'll do that every wednesday.

Before picture: Monday may 25th, 2009
height: 4'10"
weight: 130
cup size: DD
thigh measurment:
waist:
hip (butt)
bust:

21 day goals: nutriton

no candy

no soda

no "cream" product (sour cream, cream cheese...etc, basically God's gift to this world...)

no more then one glass of juice a day (conentrated, b/c we get it from wic)

no more then 2 8oz glasses of milk

i would like to be where i want to be in 3 months. where i want to be is hard to explain, b/c i can't really give you a weight. so i guess this is the best i can do:

height: 4'10" (lets face it, that's not gettin any better)

weight: 120 (i think i'll lose a lot more then 10lbs of fat, but i'll gain muscle to take it's place.)

bust: C/D

waist

thigh

hips (butt)

and i come to realty.

so i thought "i'm doing good, i just had a baby, and i've had two kids...i'm doing good" but i think that's where a lot of woman get themselves in trouble. we make excuses for ourselves. "oh i couldn't go to the gym till now b/c the daycare at my gym only takes babies that are 6 months or older" (my baby just turned 6 months yesterday, and i just started working out on monday.) but that's what we need to stop doing, making escuses. b/c then one escuse turns into another, and before you know it, not only have you not lost all of your baby wieght, but you're unhealthy, and weigh more.

I was a gymnast for my entire life and all the way up until i was about 4 months prego with my fiirst (who is now 2.5) and after i had my second the wieght came off really fast, and actually ii can fit into some clothes that i never could after my first (to not say first and second, the first is sebastian, and the second is caydon) i have three sets of clothes. there's "pre baby" the before i ever had kids set. then there's "post baby" the after you have the baby and can't fit into maternity clothes but you can't fit into your old clothes either set. and last i have the "post post baby" which are the clothes i had to buy about 6 months after i had sebastian, b/c i lost enough weight to not fit into the post baby clothes but not enough to fit into the pre baby clothes.

so this time, caydon is 6 months, and i can actually fit into my pre baby clothes! yah!! well, that sounds good, but once i post the pictures, you'll see it's not good. b/c even though i can fit into my cheerleading uniform from highschool, you wouldn't think that from looking at my pictures. i was in extremly good shape in highschool, so i've always been a bigger build person, but it's always been muscle...think of the olympic gymnasts...and that's me. now think of an umpa lumpa..that's me now.

so i just wanted to write a little background, and to let anyone who reads this, a mom or not, that it's never too late to start. jess and i have the advantage b/c we are young and it will be easier for our bodies to get into this routine. but by changing your lifestyle, no matter what your age is, you can easily add another 10-20 years. healthy years! who doesn't want to see a little of their great grandkds? or great great grandkids?? i know i do. so lets do this, and lets do it now.

the experts say that it takes 21 days to get useto a habbit. after 21 days of doing somethng, t just becomes part of your life. and my excuse for not always eating healthy was "well i'd rather not stress myself out trying to find stuff to eat, i don't want to starve. but that's just another excuse. 'm not going to go on a diet, but i wll be watching my portions (a big step everyone can take...instead of the whole tub of cream cheese...maybe just the serving size?) and my husband and i will be doing what we can to make whole healthy meals. you can make good meals that are still healthy. and after eating this food for 21 days i should be use to it, and my body should crave nothng else. now, another thing people might be able to relate to is money! we are broke for sure lol. so we may not be buying everythng organic, but i will try to start a garden, that will take some of the food cost out. we're on wic, so we'll do what we can with what we get on that. and i'll let you guys know , how it goes, and how much my grocery bill is. i also vow from this point to not eat out for the next 21 days. i'm not against eating out, but i know i for sure have had waaaaay to many whopper jrs with cheese in the last year. and so once my body gets in the habbit of eating healthy, by theory i will no longer crave those things. i also vow to excersise at least 3 times a week, but my goal is 5. i don't have a scale at my house, so i will have to weigh myself only when i go to the gym. so here i go, on a mission...a mission to be one hot mama! i hope you enjoy the journey and that it gives you inspiration.

5/27/09 Food

Breakfast: Nothing... (bad)

Lunch: 1/2 order of BWW Popcorn Shrimp- 294 cal

       1/2 order of BWW Mini Corn Dogs- 366 cal

       20 0z Coke- 240 cal

       Total: 900 cal 

Dinner: 1 serving mac and cheese- 310 cal

 1 hot dog and bun- 280

 1 slice of cheese- 50

 Total: 640 cal

Total calories for the day: 1540

So I need to make sure I am eating more than twice a day. It is hard for me to eat breakfast, but I will work on it. I went to bed hungry and it was very hard not to get a snack. I usually eat something before bed, and that was hard not to do. But I know its a bad habit. I am trying to keep my calories under 2000, and I should start exercising more. I am gonna try to get in an hour of exercise tomorrow and eat less, more often. 

Welcome!

Tasha and I are on a mission to get skinny. Through this blog we will record our weight every day, as well as what we eat and how much exercise we do. Both of us will be posting and hopefully loosing weight!

Day 1: 5/27/09

Weight: 268.6 @11 am

BMI: 49.8

Goal #1 -16 weeks

Weight: 216

BMI: 40.1

Weight-loss per week: 3.25 lbs

This is where I am starting and where I hope to begin. I am realistic about how much I can loose a week, and I think this will be a healthy way to get healthy!

Jess